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title: "The Confession · Исповедь"
author: "Maxim Gorky"
translator: "Rose Strunsky"
title_ru: "Исповедь"
author_ru: "Максим Горький"
author_fr: "Maxime Gorki"
author_de: "Maxim Gorki"
languages: [ru, en]
shelf: "Literature"
section: 1 of 26
url: https://scriptura.si/works/gorky-confession/1/
cite: "Maxim Gorky, tr. Rose Strunsky, The Confession · Исповедь, section 1. Scriptura (scriptura.si), https://scriptura.si/works/gorky-confession/1/"
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# The Confession · Исповедь

*Maxim Gorky, tr. Rose Strunsky*

Russian: Исповедь, Максим Горький · French: Maxime Gorki · German: Maxim Gorki

A foundling who loses his wife and child goes wandering across Russia in search of God, and finds him at last in the people: Gorky’s novel of the God-builders, in Russian and English.

> Russian: Максим Горький, «Исповедь» (1908), in the text Gorky prepared for his collected works (Kniga edition); from Wikisource. The editors’ commentary is left out.

> English: Rose Strunsky’s translation, The Confession (New York: Frederick A. Stokes, 1916), Project Gutenberg #55828. Her introduction is left out. The Russian has no chapter breaks of its own, so the whole book is aligned by meaning and each Russian sentence sits beside the English chapter that renders it.

## 1. Chapter I

Source: https://scriptura.si/works/gorky-confession/1/ · cite a paragraph as https://scriptura.si/works/gorky-confession/1/#p-N

[¶0] I am a weed, a foundling, an illegitimate being. It isn't known to whom I was born, but I was abandoned on the estate of Mr. Loseff in the village of Sokal, in the district of Krasnoglinsk. My mother left me--or perhaps it was some one else--in the landlord's park, on the steps of the little shrine under which the old landlady Loseff lay buried and where I was found by Danil Vialoff, the gardener. He was walking in the park early in the morning, when he saw a child wrapped in rags lie moving on the steps, of the shrine. A smoke-colored cat was walking stealthfully around it.

> Russian: …Позвольте рассказать жизнь мою; времени повесть эта отнимет у вас немного, а знать её — надобно вам. Я — крапивник, подкидыш, незаконный человек; кем рождён — неизвестно, а подброшен был в экономию господина Лосева, в селе Сокольем, Красноглинского уезда. Положила меня мать моя — или кто другой — в парк господский, на ступени часовенки, где схоронена была старая барыня Лосева, а найден я был Данилой Вяловым, садовником. Пришёл он рано утром в парк и видит: у двери часовни дитя шевелится, в тряпки завёрнуто, а вокруг кот дымчатый ходит.

[¶1] I lived with Danil until I was four years old, but as he himself had a large family, I fed myself wherever I happened to be, and when I found nothing I whined and whined, then fell asleep hungry.

> Russian: У Данилы прожил я до четырёх лет, но он сам многодетный был, кормился я где попало, а когда пищи не найду, — попищу, попищу да голоден и засну.

[¶2] When I was four I was taken by the sexton Larion, a very strange and lonely man; he took me because of his loneliness. He was short of stature, round like a toy balloon and had a round face. His hair was red, his voice thin like a woman's, and his heart was also like a woman's, gentle to everybody. He liked to drink wine and drank much of it; when sober he was silent, his eyes always half-closed, and he had an air of being guilty before all, but when drunk, he sang psalms and hymns in a loud voice, held his head high and smiled at every one.

> Russian: Четырёх лет взял меня к себе дьячок Ларион, человек одинокий и чудесный; взял он меня для скуки своей. Был он небольшого роста, круглый и лицо круглое; волосы рыжие, а голос тонкий, подобно женскому, и сердце имел тоже как бы женское — до всех ласковое. Любил вино пить и пил помногу; трезвый молчалив бывал, глаза полузакрыты всегда, и вид имел человека виноватого пред всеми, а выпивши — громко ирмосы и тропари пел, голову держал прямо и всякому улыбался.

[¶3] He remained apart from people, living in poverty, for he had given away his share to the priest, while he himself fished both summer and winter. And for fun he caught singing birds, teaching me to do the same. He loved birds and they were not afraid of him; it is touching to recall how even the most timid of little birds would run over his red head and get mixed up in his fiery hair. Or the bird would settle on his shoulder and look into his mouth, bending its wise little head to the side. Then again Larion would lie on a bench and sprinkle hempseed in his head and beard, and canaries, goldfinches, tomtits and bullfinches would collect around him, hunting through his hair, creeping over his cheeks, picking his ears, settling on his nose while he lay there roaring with laughter, squinting his eyes and conversing tenderly with them. I envied him for this--of me, the birds were afraid.

> Russian: От людей в стороне стоял, жил бедно, надел свой попу отдал, а сам, зиму и лето, рыбу ловил да — забавы ради — птиц певчих, к чему и меня приучил. Любил он птиц, и они не боялись его; умилительно вспомнить, как, бывало, бегает поползень — птица очень дикая — по рыжей голове его и путается в огневых волосах. Или сядет на плечо и в рот ему заглядывает, наклоняя умную голову свою. А то ляжет Ларион на лавку, насыплет конопли в голову и в бороду себе, и вот слетятся чижи, щеглята, синицы, снегири роются в волосах дьячка, по щекам лазят, уши клюют, на нос ему садятся, а он лежит и хохочет, жмуря глаза да ласково беседуя с ними. Завидовал я ему в этом — меня птицы боялись.

[¶4] Larion was a man of tender soul and all animals recognized it; I can't say the same for men, though I don't mean to blame them for I know man isn't fed by caresses.

> Russian: Нежной души человек был Ларион, и все животные понимали это; про людей того не скажу — не в осуждение им, а потому, что, знаю, — человека лаской не накормишь.

[¶5] It used to be rather difficult for him in winter; he had no wood and he had nothing to buy it with, having drunk up the money. His little hut was as cold as a cellar, except that the birds chirped and sang, and the two of us would lie on the cold stove, wrapped in everything possible, listening to the singing of the birds. Larion would whistle to them--he could whistle well--looking like a grossbeak, with his large nose, his hooked bill and his red head. Often he would say to me: "Well, listen, Motka" (I was baptized Matvei). "Listen!"

> Russian: Зимою трудновато бывало ему: дров нет и купить не на что, деньги пропиты; в избёнке, как в погребе, холодно, только пичужки щебечут да поют, а мы с ним, лёжа на холодной печи, всем, чем можно, окутаемся и слушаем птичье пение… Ларион им подсвистывает — хорошо умел! — да и сам был похож на клеста: нос большой, крюком загнутый, и красная голова. А то, бывало, скажет мне: — Вот, слушай, Мотька, — меня Матвеем окрестили, — слушай!

[¶6] He would lie on his back, his hands under his head, squinting his eyes and singing something from the funeral Liturgy in his thin voice. The birds would then become quiet, stopping to listen, then they themselves would begin to sing one after the other. Larion would try to sing louder than they and they would exert themselves, especially the canaries and goldfinches, or the thrushes and starlings. He would often sing himself up to such a point that the tears from his eyes would trickle from out his lids, wetting his cheeks and washing his face gray.

> Russian: Ляжет на спину, руки под голову, зажмурит глаза и заведёт своим тонким голосом что-нибудь из литургии заупокойной. Птицы замолчат, прислушаются, да потом и сами вперебой петь начнут, а Ларион пуще их, а они ярятся, особенно чижи да щеглята или дрозды и скворцы. До того он допоётся, бывало, что сквозь веки из глаз у него слёзы текут, щёки ему мочат и, омытое слезами, станет серым лицо его.

[¶7] This singing sometimes frightened me, and once I said to him in a whisper:

> Russian: От такого пения иной раз жутко становилось, и однажды я сказал ему тихонько:

[¶8] "Uncle, why do you always sing about death?" He stopped, looked at me and said, smiling,

> Russian: — Что ты, дядя, всё про смерть поёшь? Перестал он, поглядел на меня и говорит, смеясь:

[¶9] "Don't get frightened, silly. It doesn't matter if it is about death; it is pretty. Of the whole church service the funeral mass is the most beautiful. It offers tenderness to man and pity for him. Among us, no one has pity except for the dead." These words I remember very well, as I do all his words, but of course at that time I could not understand them. The things of childhood are only understood on the eve of old age, for these are the wisest years of man.

> Russian: — А ты не бойся, глупый! Это ничего, что смерть, зато — красиво! В богослужении самое красивое — заупокойная литургия: тут ласка человеку есть, жалость к нему. У нас, кроме покойников, никого не умеют жалеть! Слова эти — хорошо помню, как и все его речи, но понимать их в ту пору я, конечно, не мог. Детское только перед старостью понятно, в самые мудрые годы человека.

[¶10] I remember also that I asked him once, "Why does God help man so little?"

> Russian: Помню тоже — спросил я его: почему бог людям мало помогает?

[¶11] "It's none of His business," he explained to me. "Help yourself, that's why reason was given to you. God is here so that it won't be so terrible to die, but just how to live, that is your affair."

> Russian: — Не его это дело! — объяснил он мне. — Сам себе помогай, на то тебе разум дан! Бог — для того, чтобы умирать не страшно было, а как жить — это твоё дело!

[¶12] I soon forgot these words of his, and recalled them too late, and that is why I have suffered much vain sorrow.

> Russian: Рано забыл я эти речи его, а вспомнил — поздно, и оттого много лишнего горя перенёс.

[¶13] He was a remarkable man! When angling most people never shout and never speak so as not to frighten the fish, but Larion sang unceasingly, or recounted the lives of the saints to me, or spoke to me about God, and yet the fish always flocked to him. Birds must also be caught with care, but he whistled all the time, teased them and talked to them and it never mattered--the birds walked into his traps and nets. The same thing as to bees; when setting a hive or doing anything else, which old bee-keepers do with prayers, and even then don't always succeed, the sexton, when called for the job, would strike the bees, crush them, swear profanely, and yet everything went in the best way possible. He didn't like bees--they blinded a daughter of his once. She found herself in a bee-hive--she was only three at the time--and a bee stung her eye. This eye grew diseased, and then blind, and soon the other eye followed. Later the little girl died from headache, and her mother became insane.

> Russian: Замечательный был человек! Все люди, когда удят, не кричат, не разговаривают, чтобы не пугать, — Ларион поёт неумолчно, а то рассказывает мне жития разные или о боге говорит, и всегда к нему рыба шла. Птиц ловят тоже с осторожностью, а он всё время свистит, дразнит их, беседы с ними ведёт, и — ничего! — идёт птица и в чапки и в сеть. Опять же — насчёт пчёл — рои отсаживать или что другое, — старые пчеляки с молитвой это делают, и то не всяк раз удаётся им, позовут дьячка — он бьёт пчел, давит их, ругается матерно, — а всё сделает в лучшем виде. Не любил он пчёл: они у него дочь ослепили. Забралась на пчельник девочка — три года было ей, — а пчела её в глаз и чикнула; разболелся глазок да ослеп, за ним — другой, потом девочка померла от головной боли, а мать её сошла с ума…

[¶14] Yes, he never did anything the way other people did, and he was as tender to me as if he were my own mother. They did not treat me with much mercy in the village. Life was hard, and I was a stranger, and a superfluous one.... Suddenly and illegally to be eating the morsel that belonged to some one else!

> Russian: Да, всё он делал не как люди, ко мне ласков был, словно мать родная; в селе меня не очень жаловали: жизнь — тесная, а я — всем чужой, лишний человек. Вдруг чей-нибудь кусок незаконно съем…

[¶15] Larion taught me the church service, and I became his helper and sang with him in the choir, lit the censer, and did all that was needed. I helped the watchman Vlassi keep order in the church and I liked doing all this, especially in winter. The church was of brick, they heated it well, and it was warm inside it.

> Russian: Приучил меня Ларион ко храму, стал я помогать ему по службе, пел с ним на клиросе, кадило зажигал, всё делал, что понадобится; сторожу Власию помогал порядок в церкви держать и любил всё это, особенно зимой. Церковь-то деревянная, топили её хорошо, тепло было в ней.

[¶16] I liked vespers better than morning mass. In the evening the people were purified by work and were freed of their worries, and they stood quietly and majestically, and their souls shone like wax candles with little flames. It was plain then, that though people had different faces their misery was the same.

> Russian: Всенощная служба больше утренней приятна мне была; к ночи, трудом очищенные, люди отрешаются от забот своих, стоят тихо, благолепно, и теплятся души, как свечи восковые, малыми огоньками; видно тогда, что хоть лица у людей разные, а горе — одно.

[¶17] Larion liked the church service; he would close his eyes, throw back his red head, stick out his Adam's apple and burst forth into song, losing himself so that he would even start off on some uncalled for hymn and the priest would make signs to him from the altar: "Where is it taking you?" He also read beautifully. His voice was singsong and sonorous, and had tenderness in it, and emotion and joy. The priest did not like him, nor did he like the priest. More than once he said to me:

> Russian: Ларион любил службу во храме: закроет глаза, голову рыжую кверху закинет, кадык выпятит и — зальётся, запоёт. До того доходил, что и лишнее певал, — уж поп ему из алтаря знаки делает — куда, дескать, тебя занесло? И читал тоже прекрасно, нараспев, звонко, с ласкою в голосе, с трепетом и радостью. Поп не любил его, он попа — тоже и не раз, бывало, говорил мне:

[¶18] "That, a priest! He is no priest, he is a drum upon whom need and force of habit beat their sticks. If I were a priest, I would read the service in such a way that not only would I make the people cry, but even the holy images!"

> Russian: — Какой это священник! Он не поп, а барабан, по которому нужда и привычка палками бьют. Был бы я попом, я бы так служил, что не токмо люди святые иконы плакали бы!

[¶19] It was true--the priest did not suit his post. He was short-nosed and dark as if he had been singed by gun-powder. His mouth was large and toothless, his beard straggly, his hair thin and bald on top, his arms long. He had a hoarse voice and he panted as if carrying a load that was too much for his strength. He was greedy and always in a bad humor--for his family was large and the village was poor, the land of the peasants bad and there was no business.

> Russian: И это верно — нехорош был поп на своём месте: лицо курносое, чёрное, словно порохом опалено, рот широкий, беззубый, борода трёпаная, волосом жидок, со лба — лысина, руки длинные. Голос имел хриплый и задыхался, будто не по силе ношу нёс. Жаден был и всегда сердит, потому — многосемейный, а село бедное, зе?мли у крестьян плохие, промыслов нет никаких.

[¶20] In summer, even when the mosquitoes were thick, Larion and I spent our days and our nights in the woods to hunt for birds or on the river to catch fish. It happened that he would be needed unexpectedly for some religious ceremony and he would not be there, nor would any one know where to find him. All the little boys in the village would scatter to hunt for him, running like hares and crying, "Sexton! Larion! Come home!" He would hardly ever be found. The priest would scold and threaten to complain, and the peasants would laugh.

> Russian: Летом, когда и комар богат, мы с Ларионом днюем и ночуем в лесу, за охотой на птиц, или на реке, рыбу ловя. Случалось — вдруг треба какая-нибудь, а дьячка нет, и где найти его — неведомо. Всех мальчишек из села разгонят искать его; бегают они, как зайчата, и кричат: — Дьячок! Ларивон! Аида домой! Едва найдут… Поп ругается, жалобой грозит, а мужики — смеются.